Do you know I have dreams that actually mean something to me?
They are not presented to you for belittling
nor are they shared in hope that you will help me see the light.
I want you to get excited…to feel what I feel
Then perhaps you could understand.
You speak to me of sacrifice as though I know nothing
With just one sentence you lay to waste
what has so far constituted my entire existence
I know sacrifice…all too well
I also know what it means to sacrifice for naught.
I’m a big girl now. The inevitable consequence of being born
It happens, one day, one week, one year at a time
Despite sacrifices I have still learned
most of all I have learned about what I don’t want
and it slips from my tongue before I can stop it.
For so many years I did what I thought was expected
and I admit, these things were done in hopes of reward
praise, dollars, love…but always left empty
Now, my cup overflows with joy
despite a rapidly declining bank account
Now, it is a a different kind of guilt I battle
because in my knowing, what I do not want
has been revealed to all
along with the proof needed for you to see
I can no longer hold my tongue.
All those years wasted, trying to convince myself
I was where I was supposed to be
following the divine plan…
when my soul always knew
what it was going to take.
It’s been a very rough day on my shore…and I am so thankful for OpenLinkNight. This week sees the return of Joy Ann Jones…a personal favorite many of you know as @Hedge_Witch. Hoping she’s ready to work some of her magic for me. I may be late to the party…but hey, I’m here! Join us at dVersePoets…let’s get our therapy on!